Tidak tahu, tahu-tahu saya ada dikursi ini. Tumpukan kertas di kiri, ada sekitar 3 folder. Sebelah kanan ada 2 gelas. 1 gelas sepertinya bekas teh dan 1 gelas terisi air putih. Di depan saya komputer menyala, 3 bunyi pertanda email masuk, instant messenger menyala dan album feist terdengar. Saya tengok ke kiri, kedepan, tengok sekelling, 3 orang sibuk di depan komputer. Seseorang memanggil ke arah saya. Siapa yang dia panggil? saya? saya?
Tidak tahu, seperti sepersekian detik setelah bangun tidur rasanya. Yang saya ingat, saya sedang ada di gunung mencari buah-buahan, memanaskan air untuk membuat teh. Sendirian. Tidak tahu, sekarang kenapa saya ada disini. Kemudian saya mengecek kantung saya, ada kertas bertuliskan ‘manual book’. dalam keadaan bingung saya menuju ke tempat bertuliskan toilet, saya baca seluruh isi manual book. Kemudian saya ingat semua, saya keluar toilet dan semua dunia berjalan seperti biasa.
selamat sore
Legian, 10 August 2011
Some people go and I heard steps coming, some people might come. Come and go theme always remind me to the song by Phil Collins - On My Way. 3 years ago, when i decided to leave my hometown, I sang this on the plane. Tears burst, meanwhile feet keep going and soul dancing for new adventures. I am On My Way as if no destination, all the time fill with energy, worry, hope, adrenaline.
Now, lets sing it another way, on Your Way. Some friends do movement and we need to celebrate it. On Your Way - On My Way, oh I can’t wait for the time we will have coffee at the corner somewhere, say Venice. It is Fair and make so Well. Fairwell.
Watching Father of the Bride, and some scenes take me to deep reflection. it is family memory. family, past-present-future. Wonderful past burst me into tears, i miss my family. I miss my childhood. I miss my playground. present? now I m so alone. no family physically surrounded me, but yes we are still connecting in mind. how about future? that’s my biggest question.
I remember a line form sex and the city, 10 years turn into minutes, oh we time really do cruel things of us. Time steal our happiness. I am tired, need good sleep.
checking my old post, 1 month 7 days. now almost 4 months. Oh my eyes, I can’t see the day and day coming. I stop counting and surrender.
surrender? really?
ok, no, im kidding ! July is the new start.
I am extra lazy person. I really know how to enjoy my self doing nothing, lying all day and day dreaming. One day, I heard alarm ringing so hard, like fire emergency. Something tell me that I will die soon if I put lazybones as my middle name.
Die? not yet. Breakthrough, I bought agenda and starting organize my life from simple thing. I remember I push my self to read text book on 5 am. All things should be organized. Year by year I get use to with this habit. Feel like, my day is ruin if I leave my agenda. on 2008, I even bought PDA.
so, how are you my sweety lazy side? He still there, and he is coming if I need it. Now, I enjoy it so much because no guilty when lying all day and watching movie or reading. I learned something, one character can’t be destroyed. We can turn it to be positive or negative.
